Yes, I'm jealous, I'm annoyed, I'm peeved.
And I cannot see or understand why.
I lie down and think and dig through inbetween the pink squishy useless slobs and I can't find out why I'm not as good, why I can't be as good.
And I realised I'm thinking too much.
The thoughts were like making high frequency sounds, you know like, "yiiiii.." and I got fed up.
I hate it, it's not inferiority, it's just jealousy or maybe I don't try hard enough.
Or maybe it's not me, those punks are just born with a silver tongue, nothing to worry about, not trying anything to get anything and when they don't get enough, they scream and yell and WTF,
whine, and it's so fucking annoying cause they don't even try and they make it sound like they are in pain trying to try to try.
I just want to do well without trying either, yeah, NO COMMITMENT and expecting to get the results of something requiring COMMITMENT, but it's so dumb, commitment is dumb.
Things shouldn't happen because of commtiment, motivation drives something to the end product.
There is no such thing as
commitment. It's a scheme, a lie.
And you all fell for it.
People with leader skills are all an illusion, you choose to think them as someone to follow, but it's because you don't want to rely on yourself!
I am not in self denial.
I don't believe in self denial but in opinions.
That's why I can just dislike a person out of opinion, I can look like I like a person but my tolerances are all controlled by my opinions.
I am biased and I'm narrow minded but I believe I am open minded, I'm close minded about my open views.
And I think () is selfish, * is a cheapskate and - can't lie, so don't bother trying.

London is stunning.
Peace out.