I wanted to write this many days ago but I didn't have the chance.

During these days, I found out how easy it can be to lose someone so fast.
And things you might say will not be able to be taken back.
I don't know everything's fine again, things might come back to square one, and the vomitting of cusses might come back and I might hate you all over again.

I don't even know if I was scared to lose you at all, it felt quite damn surreal and I couldn't cry or think.

But then, all of a sudden tears would start rolling down my face and I would find myself worried that you might die.

Then I'd find myself thinking what will happen if you were gone.
Both the materialistic and other.

It felt like repetitive realisations and I kept hearing worse stuff every hour.
My heart pounded faster.

Now you're fine and the whole thing didn't even seem to have started at all.

I don't even know if it's just a basic thing to write or a sincere hope, but otherwise, keep remaining alright.

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Nipple Baby

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Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

old song
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I don't feel like studying or doing anything.
I should just give up only for this year.

Okay HK show, cheers.

The feeling that I'm feeling is complimentary.

She's falling for him, and he's falling for me, and I am falling for somebody else, who's falling for you, oh we're falling like dominoes.

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I think I'm a goof.

I hate my brain to function though it's quite amazing it can.
And something today made me think, and I'm too tired to think so I hope the thought comes out by itself w/o me thinking and then maybe I can write it down in time.

I wished people'd see me with more confidence, because though I can't do it, I might be able to do it with that confidence, at least I experienced motivation if I can do it still.

And you know the feeling of feeling unsure, not insecure but unsure and you don't know, it feels as if it's incomplete and you want to complete it but you don't know how and for it's completion, it needs no action but waiting.
Yeah that's it.

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