2009

I'm deadbeat.
Unprepared.
Lethargic.
Thoughts distorted.

I'm not ready at all.
The mistakes I made in 08, still unlearned.

I'm insecure about what the new year will bring me.
I want new friends.
I want new confidence.
I want to know God better.
And I canot believe what I just wrote above this.

I wished I could expressed how I feel right now.
The whole confusion, but I'm tired and I'm sure even if I wasn't, I wouldn't be able to.

I have a tendency to read what others write and at times, they are able to express my feelings and I get to rip this sentence off.
My fingers clicked the mouse to a new tab and then I clicked the x.
I know I can do it.

I dowand to be shallow brained.
I want to learn to extract emotions.

I will attain confidence.

And again whole new I, I, I, I post.