2006

I'm doing my chinese and this feeling of nostalgia just overwhelmed me.
I think sec one is the most memorable year in my life.
The year I changed, and the year I began to change.
The friends I held the closest to me were lost in that year, and now we're stronger than ever.
The year I held the most confidence, the year I lost so much confidence that I can't reclaim them back anymore.
The year I made so many friends whom now I don't even talk to.
The year my studies started to detoriate and so is still.
The year I liked a boy who actually liked me back.

I remember having a huge infatuation over Junyang, the countless number of his name I scribbled in my Strait's Time book which I have now thrown away.
I remember going out with him sneakily without my parent's consent.
Looking back at it, I was irrevocably in(to) love, wanting a boyfriend so much,
so much angst.
I remember Ashley, whom I no longer talk to now; her legs caught my attention, and they still do now and then(I'm not perverted), and I do wish to revive that friendship.
I remember things not related to me at all, Ashley and Jonchan.
I remember the nice things I heard.
I remember the hurtful things I saw.
I rememberthe library.
I remember the basketball court.
I remember how I made friends with Ryan.
I remember going out with Hanya Brannigan Jeremyhon and Wanyu.
I remember my bad dressing sense.
I remember the short hair I loved.
I remember the short hair I hated.
I remember sitting with Grace.

I regret things.
I regret superficial things,
I regret spiritual things,

I regret not making more friends,
I regret not studying,
I regret not improving my self image and therefore am not as cool as I could be.
I regret things I've said,
things I've done.

And the worst thing now is that I've lost the pictures I took with the pink phone I'd dropped into the toiletbowl.

I miss 2006.

I wished I had known you then too.