STUDY YOU STUPID PERSON!

I didn't do my grade 8 tdy.
I'm not very sure of how to feel.
I mean afterall I thought it was wednesday, genuinely!
But even if so, I wouldn't have gone too.
I didn't practice therefore I knew I would fail given the bullshit that, "oh! you haven't tried, how would you know?"
Goddamnit, you know yourself best.
And I don't regret not taking the exam.
I regret the years and money spent on something I never grew to enjoy and when I could've have learnt ballet which I really wanted at that age and really excel at something.
Now my only credit after all this 12 years is a merit for grade 4 and that is somthing really demeaning.
I never wanted to learn this, 350 for the exam was obviously wasted and those 12 years of fees.
No, unlike your words I won't regret not taking the exam, I regret not wailing and bawling more so that the torture would've ended.
Okay, so "torture" is slightly dramatic, but I vividly remember the dread in me everytime I was a step closer to the centre with the big bright neon words in kovan(that has now been replaced with some other ntuc thing) "YAMAHA".
I feel like my entire childhood was wasted alrd.
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On a lighter note, watched gg, watched bbf, am technically quite satisfied.
NEED TO COMPLETE MORE WORK.
My phone has a note on standby that screams, metaphorically, "STUDY STUDY STUDY YOU STUPID PERSON!".
How's that for motivation?

I will find pressure and let the pressure consume me and whilst it digests my innerbeing, I will gain knowledge, I will gain knowledge, I will gain knowledge, I should just copy paste that chunk.
LD is mad, 7 hours +++ 4 days this wk holiday.

Analeigh is smokin'.

Ow, butt cramp.