I cannot stand it!
Stupid Julia went to put LUCAS GRABEEL's picture in her post and I'm almost kissing my computer!

Okay, fine I'm not.

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Okay I post about my favourite celebs in order okay.



(wtf)



10mins later..

I decided not to.

First, I got sick of finding handsome pictures like those that ppl will see and go "Gracelynn! Not bad ah! Good taste!", then I'll go "Eh heh, yeah.." then spaz.

Second, I dowanda to get into a girly fit.

But this....














is too funny.
He's AWESOME!


Have been watching GG, and

Ed Westwick has an erotic vibe, and is gdamn sexy!

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Anyway, I give up trying to place things into order.
I dowand to behave like some stuck up failing leader.

I refuse to try and get everything organized.
Lest, I pass off snotty and annoying.
Yes, I hate judgement I fear judgement I AVOID judgement.

OMFG,
I feel like thwowing a hissy fit.

Seems highly unlikely

Check out these wicked shoes!


Celine Spring'09


Unsure of brand.


Prada Spring '09


In some ways, shoes have a lot of architectural influences.

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I really like Natalia Vodianova, though I don't really speak of her.
I think she's a retired model, in her early thirties I think.
She seems to add a certain kind of poetry in fashion through her shoots.

Spring '06


Fall '05



Some unknown model; Spring '06

I think the older collections are much nicer and simpler(quite obviously)
from the newer and recent ones.
Effortless with maximum results.

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Marc Jacobs

...is such a genius.
I fing love the hat
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Cheers

5 years time

This song is so lovely.

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I will laugh and cry and hurt when need be only.

Puerile

I'm silly and childish.

I really dislike the way I act.
I wished I could come across as a more mature and sensible person.
Not someone so superficial and speaks before he thinks.

My mom said my anger always takes control of my thoughts and my arguments are irrational and if I were to be a lawyer, my speed of talking would only get me that far.

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I wished I wouldn't degrade myself so much.

I wished I wouldn't lament on my looks and brains so much.

But there really isn't much to compliment about.

My humour is puerile.

I'm rash and shortsighted.

I speak incoherently and I have preposterous views.

Embarrassingly, all this adjectives I typed out, I went to searched and understood from the dictionary of Cambridge, furthuring my unintelligence.

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Uglyness-wise,

I'm not totally repelling or disfigured, but my face isn't all that great and my character just amplifies my ugliness.

My nose is not sharp.
My face is covered almost in white heads and some blackheads.

My eyes are small and cocked(my IC picture shows it very obviously.)

My nails are short and stubbly.

My fingers are not long and thin.

My joints would soon be disjointed from numerous cracking of knuckles(it has no link but I'm worrried!)

My legs are dry!

My chest is flat(couldn't care less but I can't wear a bikini, I know you're laughing stop it.)

I'm not my ideal height.

My hair is malfunctioned.

I do not have pretty clothes to flaunt or wear and vice versa.

My face is fat when I smile.

I can't smile.
I have no dimples.

And the list continues..

Again, stop throwing judgements about me being a superficial bitchasswipe.(I'm just giving you ideas.)

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My blog is unintelligent and no one tags, I might remove my tagboard.

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Hathaway is beautiful.

Itchy eyes.

Initially, I wanted a post on architecture and fashion and all things design, then I came across.. asitisinheaven.bs(contains quite mature theme.)

Hahah, I'm not a fan of buff guys but Mitch Hewer is just too handsome and dorky. Fine, he's not that buff but I usually like slightly thinner guys.




Want that rodeo hat!


Stomach hair distracting...


Sasha.

What boys do when they're alone.

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Cheers!

Air Sex

I'm not a fan of Panic at the Disco but, their videos never EVER fail to amuse me.

Girly "Rant"

I realised I'm not really a fan of the word "rant".
It's as though you want to say something but of no significance and yet whatever "rant" you're gna write about is still of some sort of significance, but since I can't describe exactly what way I'm gna say what I'm gna say next, I call it a "rant".

What a waste of explaination :B
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OMG. I. CANNOT. WAIT. FOR. THIS.

Emma Roberts is fuggot pretty and I LOVE HER HAIR.
And Alex Pettyfer is really hot!

And I can imagine myself behaving like her. Teehee!

End.

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Was reading D's blog and abt the lasting of friendships.
I realised that I really cared abt having uhm, FOREVER FRIENDS and I would cry to my mom and tell her how scared I was to lose who and so.
But now, I don't see myself with the same friends with the same level of closeness 3 years down the road.
Okay, neither can I imagine myself w/o them.

Oh yes, and the worry of ppl crying at funeral.
Sometimes, when I'm being dazed in the car.
I imagine the car crashing and me going into a coma, and something very superficial sounding, (although, I imagine myself badly hurt, there are NO scars on me)
and I wonder who would visit me, who would cry and hold my hand, who would pray and who would worry, who would visit me and who would care.

YOUR BETTER CARE AH.

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Realised girly rant wasn't exactly a rant.

No life.

Halo baby, you scratched me twice tdy, I slap you.

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Sometimes, I feel my parents don't provide me with enough, as in material things.
Then again, they are material things.

However, I cannot see how they can't provide me with extra things, how they can't please their child abit and tell them that they've provided so much with education fees and such.
How they can't so willingly fork out 300 bucks for tuition for an inexperienced tutor and think so deeply and so strongly not want to get clothes and other stuff as such.

Whilst thinking this, I feel like an utter spoilt child but yet I don't think I should feel spoilt and I get angry on why they cannot give me those material things.

I mean (in contrast) to the many other children out there, I wished my parents weren't so stingy with their money.

I don't think I well-to-do, but I'm not poor either!

I just think, shouldn't we sometimes have a shower of gifts that need no conditions.

And before you start judging me, I AM NOT A SUPERFICIAL BITCH OR BRAT.

(I'm trying not to throw a hissy fit.)

/tartan

I know why I can't do well, I'm scared and I don't take risks and therefore I don't try, I want the first attempt to be perfect and before I start, I begin to think about failure.
The image made me realised I had to press on and give shots.
I guess it's can be terrifying but I gta try, will try.

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I looked around and thought again,
there are so many ppl trying, striving and they fall.
And, I don't, I don't fall as bad.
But I feel guilty, they deserved what I got.

And I think more,
there are ppl who I keep thinking, who don't have to try so hard, and they excel,
and I feel helpless.

I detest thinking this way,
I get irrational, or if not, I cannot produce a reason.

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on a lighter note,

Mango Tartan Long Sleeved Shirt (never used)[credit: wehavesound.bs]

Will fit UK6-8

12SGD

I finally found it after the first got deleted months back.
This version is better than the released.

Urge

I just calculated my L1R5 tdy, (I dono why I still calculate my results), and its a 32 or more.
So even if I did go JC, I wouldn't be able to, poly, wouldn't be able to get wanted course and oh yeah 54 minus 32, 22 more points so ultimate F9!

So, I guess I gta buck up?

Okay, I HAVE TO.

I watch ppl as their life plunges and how they rot their life away, delibrately.
And I get fearful, what if I keep failing and I give up and end up like that?
No, cut the crap about it being impossible and the low chances, I might, I can visualize myself in that situation.
And at the same time, that fearfulness is not at its peak such that I get nervous and start perservering, I disillusion myself to thinking, no no, it won't be and I get lazy all over again, I need to start picking myself up and everybody is already in levitation.

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Somemtimes, I have this strong urge to see who would steal things, and I would imagine myself leaving valuables on a public area and watch in a corner who would take my things.
I mean whenever you lose, or get things stolen, you'd get this frustrated, "who the f would do this" feeling and you wanna slice off hands and burn their eyes with garlic.
At least, I do.

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Pretty much; nothing

A sneak peek of what I've been doing, not very proud of it, or maybe, yet.


nothing much though..

Anyway, I'm not happy with my results, cause I've been failing 3 subs every term.
School's ending is a long way and I haven't been doing much lately.

Recently, I've learn to grow and appreciate.
And am still baffled by "Say ppl, say yourself" ppl.

Innocence never seem so much a blessing sometimes.

I think hair is one of the greatest assets one has.


Okay, if you have nice hair.

There are insects crawling on me now.

Okay I just slapped one.

Anyway, I tried sewing, failed attempt.
My butt was too big and my brother had to rub in the "See, I said so.", and you can roughly conclude, the skirt was too small.
I'm feeling rather irritable that I wasted good cloth.

Oh yes, I hate it when (okay, strongly dislike it) when ppl give me ads, posters, signs, symbols, things to draw then they don't accept cause its expilcit or out of topic.
And surprisingly, my all-rounded, talented, goddamn-good-at-drawing cousin, has been rejected many a times too.
So I don't feel that bad.

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she's mad, her hands are mechanical, electronic, thus the hair.
fuck, she's awesome!
I'll try not to use bad word but I get really excited over good music!

Must not cut, musn't cut.

Painful Perils.

I didn't bawl tdy despite my disappointing results of 38.5 for chemistry.

And, I had LD, perspective of Gerard changed abit, I still find him quite narcisstic but I guess everyone's like that. And he only focuses on able.

I realised, I don't like to bathe, and I always procrastinate before I bathe, but when I do, I procrastinate about getting off the shower, leh-z..

Oh, tdy, I was trying to snap with my left hand and I felt so weak to move my fingers, as though I couldn't control and it was frustrating and I wanted to move it but I couldn't. It was as though it wasn't part of my body, and sometimes too my brain is like that, I really want to think but nothing comes out. Eitherways, we have no control on the big game, life.

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Is it possible to be blind to flaws; possible to fully love one?

D took.

Well, greenovation was a complete waste of time and I had a slight fever.

And I'm allergic to marmalade! :(

The wet towels being absorbed by my shirt and I'm lamenting to ppl again, No not about looks, Grace.

And I want to learn to sew.

I like to pick up skills but not be totally focused on it.

It's like knowing little of lots.

Results are rolling in tmr, I'm gna hold back tears.

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I pondered and realised, there's nothing much to talk to me about.

Afterthat, she threw it at me!

I wanted to write something but I can't remember.

Nevermind, on another hand, last night something dawned upon me, okay it was nothing much.

I typed it in my phone.

Wait.

"Today I saw a woman doing calligraphy with her umbrella, I finally embraced the meaning of 'Make use of whatever you have'. Oh yeah, then she dug her ear and touched the handle. I freaking swear I will not try to have any physical contact with parts of the train anymore."

I feel like gagging.

Candid

Right now my curtains are down and the room light is on and I'm wasting electricity during inflation.
All cause of getting the same crappy lighting.
I haven't been doing anything, even the boring.
I need to start exercising and earning money and studying.
I sometimes wonder if the ppl who write so well think very hard cause I'm thinking very hard now.

I realised I care for crappy things.
Not because I like crappy things but I like to keep things the way they are, new things are too sudden, too unexpected, too unadaptable.
I might turn oldfashioned.

Sometimes, I'm unable to write things cause I'm not thinking, or I can't find the write words at all.
And it is frustrating, and you rack your brains and something so manufactured and modified and mechanic comes out from it.

I told Anisha I tend to annoy people when I'm jealous.
I think it's cause I want to balance the whole, "You've got good stuff, okay you gta get bad stuff too."

I need to shopzxs.

YAY!

I think I wanna be a psychologist.
Unravelling people's mind is like unravelling yours and the complexity or it is overwhelming; cheap thrill?

Attention difficulties

A child must have exhibited at least six of the following symptoms for at least six months to an extent that is unusual for their age and level of intelligence.


Fails to pay close attention to detail or makes careless errors during work or play.


Fails to finish tasks or sustain attention in play activities.


Seems not to listen to what is said to him or her.


Fails to follow through instructions or to finish homework or chores (not because of confrontational behaviour or failure to understand instructions).


Disorganised about tasks and activities.


Avoids tasks like homework that require sustained mental effort.


Loses things necessary for certain tasks or activities, such as pencils, books or toys.


Easily distracted.


Forgetful in the course of daily activities.




Hyperactivity

A child must have exhibited at least three of the following symptoms for at least six months to an extent that is unusual for their age and level of intelligence.


Runs around or excessively climbs over things. (In adolescents or adults only feelings of restlessness may occur.)


Unduly noisy in playing, or has difficulty in engaging in quiet leisure activities.


Leaves seat in classroom or in other situations where remaining seated is expected.


Fidgets with hands or feet or squirms on seat.




Impulsivity

At least one of the following symptoms must have persisted at least for six months to an extent that is unusual for their age and level of intelligence.


Blurts out answers before the questions have been completed.


Fails to wait in lines or await turns in games or group situations.


Interrupts or intrudes on others, e.g. butts into others conversations or games.


Talks excessively without appropriate response to social restraint.

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I'm like that.

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win no matter
How hard we might swing

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I guess we can't always get everything.

"The more you know, the less you feel like you belong anywhere. Still it's nice to know some people care." -thejazzband





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look at the guy at 0 42 teehee



okay i can't help it, it's too funny

Not a fan; some competition for remix.
I was thinking, when the hell was it going to start.
Patience, good things take time.



My only favourite song from this band.
I like his nasally voice that doesn't sound like it's coming from his nasal.

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Ariived 3 hours ago from V's house.
The wall was my pillow.
And good clams.

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I have an obsession with keeping my specs scratch-free cause one lens cost 110.
Yes.
And I wipe and wipe and the scratch doesn't come off!
Okay it isn't supoosed to.

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I wished I could be more in love with my self, not the narcisstic way.
I wished I could comprehend some "why"s
I keep getting jealous.

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This post is so broken and messy.