My pimple is taking extremely long to heal, okay maybe it's cause I keep fiddling with it.

Anyway,T4 timetable is insane, we have 4 hrs of maths on one day and 4 1/2 hrs of chinese on a another.
I'm really in no mood for the next month.
I mean I got quite hyped up and excited 'cause I thought it would be really slack and fun.

Also, we had a talk about subject comb. and it got me thinking really hard and I never think so hard unless I need ideas. So I thought whether or not to choose practical or passion.
I really wanna drop if psb but otherwise take art or music.

Reasons for Music:
I can easily take it up cause I meet its criteria and get an A1 for Os.
However, I don't exactly LOVE it, in a sense, realy absorbed and interested in it, I hope you get it.

Reasons for Art:
It's something I really really LOVE to do and that is imp. because I would be taking it for 2 years.
BUT, it's not a subj that is a sure A1.

I mean the obvious answer is "TAKE UP ART LAH!"
But I mean it can really affect my grades.

For art say "Gracelynn rocks!"
For music say "Gracelynn's cool!"
okay no lah, just type down the subj. :)

I'm gonna paint for Ms Audrey Chia now.
I would like to say whatever I was pissed off about, I'm alright so (I will talk to you soon) don't get angry lah okay? You my lovely princess?

computerarts.co.uk has not yet activated my account.
I am unhappy.
I hate it when ppl have no lives(wait everyone does) and insult ppl on their blog.
I mean what's the point.
It bloody hurts. I know how it feels.
Secondly, who do they think they are, I mean YEAH, it's a free country but why take advantage of it. Its bloody ironic and stupid that they have the guts to post those shit but yet not reveal their identities.
I'm sure lotsa you agree with me.
It's not a biased thinking.
I can't think right now. I have things to pack and theory to do.
Piano never seems to end.
ARGHH.

oh yes, something funny to say.
Ytd morning, I was expecting my neighbour to fetch me but I saw my car downstairs and the woman inside was looking at me, so I approached it and noticed something really different about it but I shook it off, so I opened the door and entered it without facing the woman cause I thought she was my mom and I was annoyed with her the prev. night so I ignored her.
Then best, "hello?"
I turned at her and noticed I WAS IN THE WRONG CAR!!!
oh best, so i apologised and ran out :/

Nintendo wii is EXTREMELY cool.
Oh gosh, I like digital.
Kinda disappointing I suck at it.
Nevermind, when I grow up I wanna enter the arts industry and I will
hee haw.
:)
Yes check out this site albertocerriteno.com
It's one of the things that made me smile today.
:)
I like her face.
Anyway, point is Sunday was great fun playing stupid bai chi games where it helps you get started with the controller.
bai chi parts:
picking nose
plucking nose hair
fanning big giants
slapping flies
drinking water
shaving beard

can die.


Okay, today was really slack for a sch day, maybe it's cause HAH exams are over.

Okay, I'm gonna look at talents and pack my bag and sleep.

Okay, just to let you know, you can like go away if you wanna hear another of my mood swings.
I made lotsa wasted sacrifices today if you even care.
I didn't go out with either my school or church friends cause I thought I had cip and then best, don't have, so I thought oh can go Piao ke's house.
But then, oh best again, cannot, they were having a party and I was not to be there so I told them, alright, we'll go out tomorrow and I wa made to plan.
Woohoo, very excited, couldn't wait to watch Disturbia.
Oh, you have outing.
Oh, you don't really wanna watch.
Oh this and that.
I mean now I'm totally fed up and soon later I would be all smiley again if you know how fast I can cool off.
But the point is, I hate this kind of shit okay.
I know I sound petty and you're gonna think I'm self-centered.
Stupid saying; but if you were in my shoes how would you bloody feel?

Firstly, about the results thing getting pissed off with complaints. NO lah, I'm not refering to nobody okay? Though it souunds exactly like you but NO I'm not cause maybe I'm a STOOPID biased little airhead.

Right now, I'm really feeling like an airhead, exams are sps to be over but I seem to have nothing but infinite things to do. I don't think many will understand, my IL which I took a hellota effort didn't get sent to Mrs Tay and I'm not even sure now whether she will accept the one I sent her again.
Also, the cd my cousin lend me for all the macromedia software won't download the shit flash mx.

HOW HOW HOW.

I might not even be able to go to church cause of my mom's birthday.
I might not even be able to attend my mom's birthday cause I wanna go out with heather(this sounds materialistic and self centered, do I even care?)
I might not go out with heather cause I might have CIP
I might not have CIP cause they haven't accepted me.

I don't even know whether this is understandable but I have more things to worry about now.
I mean my little problems might seem insignificant but really I'm going anything but relaxed.


ARGHHHHHHHHH


Things to complete.
MAC FLASH
CHECK IF MRS TAY RECEIVED MY IL
CIP last 3 hrs

I still have to do my flash, I still have to do my flash, I still have to do my flash.
Thanks to the goddamnit person who deleted it.
Okay, so I got kinda annoyed by a small something but I decided it wasn't worth it after what Anisha told me. Im ean those who would know me well, would roughly guess what I'm upset about when I give this hint, RESULTS, COMPLAINTS.
I guess some ppl are never satisfied with their results no matter how bloody well it is. But Anisha said everyone has their own standards and all, that's apprpriate but one moment you are comforting someone who just passed(this is an eg) and saying its okay, when you get like a high A1 and you're all fuck.
I mean using the word fuck. Okay I do that too, so I shouldn't be hypocritical. (Come on, I mean you're like that too, aiya, swear at my face if you're not happy :) )Its that even the right description? I can't be bothered to think, I'm sick and tired about deciding whether or not to skip school. Reason for skipping is because, I'm too lazy to pack my bags and attend cca. Reason for going is that tmr would be the only day I can use the computer lab to do work and this one reason though outnumbered by the two is a more critical reason. And though I know my priorities blahblahblah, I'm kinda unbothered by the IT thing though I feel all oozy if I don't complete something and ALSO being inferior to those ppl who can get flash. I mean I'm not exactly interested but I mean it's human nature to wanna be better than someone right? RIGHT? okay, I'm not sure about you but that's my thinking.
I'm also feeling very bothered by trying to find out how to book a cip date and how Anisha can do it so easily.Looking at the NLB website is just making me feel nauseous and sleepy.
But still, I wanna complete this little shit and get one with my life.
My cousin and his wife just asked me whether or not during the holidays should I help them paint little canvases with animals and prancing things so they can hang it up in my nephew's/their son's room.
I accepted lah cause its my little nephew what and he just makes your heart melt.
Oh yeah, it's his birthday today and my mom's tmr.
And something quite hilarious happened just now.
You see my mom borrowed some "My Private Parts" book for my sister so she learns penis.......etc.
and she saw my little naked nephew after his bath and his was in the cot ,slightly above my sis and so his groin was facing my sis and my sis exclaimed fascinated and excitedly,"HE HAVE PENIS!!SO SMALL SO CUTE!!" I was about to die and undoubtedly my cousin asked,"Grace, you teach ar?" I was like NOOO.
It was bloody embarrassing and oooh, I ate crab today again. heehee :)
Gd night!

Y'know, I never seem to do well and you think blah blah blah, I'm gonna rant on about this shit. No lah!
I just wanna say that Ms Audrey is really good.
I mean she didn't know that I knew how many ppl had a grades and how FEW ppl had the b grade and all and when I was to check my marks she said, "Gracelynn, were you good in geog and lit?" I replied monotonously, "uh no." Then she said the sweetest thing ever, okay, if you weren't me you wouldn't get it but she said, "Then how come you're so bloody good in history?" I almost cried.
I mean I knew I didn't do really well on the average and so did she but she said that I think 'cause she saw me crying but I mean which teacher would be so sweet and quirky at the same time to say this?
:)
I never exactly liked teachers but somewhat the relief or temporary ones are much nicer and dedicated. I was telling T this and she said something quite reasonable and I'm sure most of you would agree since that they are temp. , they don't require that lifetime of patience those permanent teachers do and also that dedication. But I thought, those ppl who chose to be teachers should alrd know what they are gonna have to entertain but they don't seem to show any passion for that job whereas those temp, teachers can think in such a way that,"oh, I'm gonna be here for only a short while lah. dont teach, show attitude also can lah what."
So that's about it.
Wasn't very happy with my grades, I don't think I ever am besides for two class papers.
And I think some teachers are bloody annoying, I realised they always lose hope and are biased against the poorer students cause they think they don't put in effort of ever pay attentions.
Asswipes.

Are ya happy now? I mean the tagboard. I mean are you happy with the tagboard. I don't mean ya but in general.

Today, I have alot to things to say about my absolutely BRILLIANT day :)
First up in the morning, I was gladly asked unpublicly to stand on stage to glorif myself :D
Then, during IT, the file for my flash MX which I totally used effort ingot deleted. Oh yay! no more hassle :)
Then when I thought it couldn't get any better, I reached home to find my insignificant 2 bucks missing.
!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you know how the hell what the 2 bucks mean to me? I mean I sound like a miser but I'm absolutely broke and just losing any 2 bucks is like PRRIACK!
But this 2 bucks is one of a kind and I might never receive the same on again! Even if I did it wouldn't be the first one!!
>:( >:( >:(
!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just ate finished a whole tub of icecream to cool myself down.
The 2 bucks is really really really special! I mean T and C and J and A knows that fucking well.










I will get over it, I will get over it, I will get over it!
OMOOOGOSH! Who am I kidding? I will not, no maybe I will once I get awfully close to -










I'm bloody pissed bloody pissed bloody pissed.





Now I can't think of anything absolutely nice tp talk to about. Maybe that I'm broke and lost a special thing and my dignity infront of the whole school thanks to an asswipe!




I think I'm gonna do ppr cut to cool myself down.

oh bloody fk.

HALLELUJAH!
or was that what you expected me to think 'cause exams are over.
I mean it doesn't seem to leave an impact or a feeling of relief anymore. I mean I don't feel like I will DEFINITELY do well but school's still going on and all.
Of course I still have alot of things on my mind that I wanna accomplish like learning photoshop.
I mean for some ppl it's just playing around and shit but I seem to screw up the program.
!@#$!
I mean I get envious over the stupidest(is that even a word) of things but the more I want something like just to have a simple ability as that, I just can't and it makes me feel all squirmish just to type it. I can't express very well how I feel over this little thing that not even woth feeling uncomfortable about.

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Anyway, I just got to get a D50 or an ixsus? learn photoshop and the drums, maybe save some money yeah and this little lump thats makes me feel insecure/incomplete would go away (:

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I was reading some other's blogs and the way they write is so detailed and yet captivating, not like WHOA but it's not mundane or bland.
okay, I ought to be satisfied with myself but I mean who feels perfect? and I mean I'm suppose to type down how I feel right?

Also, is my topic always the same. Okay guess for what. Of course lah!

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Ooooooh! I wanna get myself rollerblades cause my previous one cracked and eitherways it was too small :B

Oh yes, (gasps) hahahahhaha, yes, I think it's really awful and disgusting being extremely tall, not like I am but I keep thinking my neck is extremely long causing my high height and makes me look improportionate(correct spelling?)
No nooooooo, I'm not trying to place it in a indirect way and boasting OHMOOGOSH, I'm so TALL, yes ye, it's AWFUL i tell you.
NOOOOO.
I'm not, its just gross, I mean during my shorter days, I was wah 156? SO TALL! I want! But now its like, stop growing gracelynn!

and and..

I can't understand how ppl can stone the entire day, I mean I need to find meaning in my life. I feel like going out but I don't have infinite clothes, this sounds stupid and makes me sound like a stereotypical dumb and materialistic girl but I mean I don't relaly like going out and wearing the same clothes, oh you say, me too! but I mean I don't even want to repeat what I wear. I'm so disappointed in myself >:[
I feel like finding something exciting to do like just going to the beach to darken up or blading, cycling too! Care to join?
Oh yeah! I'm gonna watch hairspray with my cousin and his girlf.
Then sunday, prolly disturbia with T,H,skang and R?

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Goodbye world!
:)

Y'know I was just thinking once again, "Hey! Maybe having a blog which no one exactly kinda knows is kinda good."
But after awhile I though again, and felt like maybe having a blog which no one reads is kinda a waste of time.

Oh drop subject.

Ytd at my aunt's house I looked at my cousin packing art materials to bring to his new house, it's kinda weird but I was WHOA, he grew so much. I mean last time in is JC days and when I was a toddler, he called me hamster faced and I never exactly liked him very much but soon, hahaha I grew to the little shit faced irritant and yeah.

Well, soon after he's married, alotta things are gna change.
See him less and all.
Okay grow up, I sound like I have a crush on him or something. :P
HAHAHA
Maybe it's cause I'd always wanted an older sibling and he was like a brother figure to me and eeyucks, I can't believe I'm saying this but I'd always wanted to grow up just like him.
I mean his art is great, he's bloody hell smart and the list goes on...
I mean he's kinda charismatic minus the vulgarities that I got influenced by but otherwise, I think Grace and Cheryl should know :D

okay, I'm off to studying.

No, he doesn't like me lah, hello, I'm not stable in my mind!
This sounds mean but rather I hope not :l

the best bus rides

It's freaking painful doing something you love knowing it's just wrong.

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Sometimes I think I'm resigned to failure. No, I will pass history and quite well too, yes (:

Won't elaborate further just in case I start ranting non-stop and either ways, I wouldn't have the mood.
HAHAHA.

I realised I used the word "elaborate" a lot inside my SEQs.

Oh yes, cheryl wrote this in her blog alrd but since I have nothing much to talk about. I'm gonna tell you why I dread taking buses.

This is just ONE example.

BUS 53, T,C,G,A,J and JH were with me. This isn't really funny if you didn't witness the real thing. Wanna hear the exaggerated story you can approach them :l
Okay here goes, gosh am I draggy!!
Alighting
Bus jerks
Falls backwards onto seats(fortunately no one on it)
Bus jerks again
Falls on tricia

Bus 70, this time T,C,G,A and J were with me.
I was at the big blank space when everybody sat down busily messaging RYAN GOH, yes and the bus JERKED again. I fell facewards onto the wall infront of me. I looked like a fool really.
Not only that, this fillipino? vietnamese maid laughed hysterically and LOUDLY and told all her friends who didn't see what happened about it and the laughter just continued for what? 3 mins?
I have the abosolute best bus rides.

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okay off to study!


oh wait wait wait!
I seem to fall in love with songs that are kinda outdated.

okay, i got 15/25 for english.
You guys might as well say, ahh you know, it's not THAT bad. Oh yeah it is!
Right, I didn't fail, just as good. I better get that speech well prepared for my chinese oral on wednesday.
Some might think I'm being deranged when I can do it next tuesday but choose to do it on wednesday, however, just get over and done with it.
I ought to be studying for my history now or I'm never completing my revision thoroughly. Also, I haven't been doing well in the aspect of humanities; nothing much to write.
But I WILL DO WELL, I mean I was thinking about in between my sleeping and awake state, that there ..


NO THIS IS NOT TO OFFEND however ironic it may sound cause I should know it will be offensive, but..


okay, this might not even sound offensive lah however, I was thinking that there was once me and Jiayee got caught for our extra piercings(they weren't eve on the face?!!) Anyway, I mean people have a stereotype that OH WHOA, that kid there, look at the amount of piercings he has! He must probably stay up till 23456am clubbing and does really lousy for his studies. OH what a bad example.

Firstly I feel like expressing my views but I have to study, am not very good with expressing myself with words(my maid's pissing me off with her she-thinks-shes-so-great attitude, out of the point) and I'm kinda lazy to emphasize that you shouldn't stereotype no matter how right you can be. I mean in the end, both me and jiayee were the last in class.

Gosh I sound like that's a cool thing. OH, like HELL NO, it's bloody embarrassing okay. But it's not like I don't study hard, I mean others could be studying harder but certain ppl are just "inborn" with the genius thing implanted in them okay. So studying is not a chore to them.

Yeah, Mrs T I don't fucking pay an attention but sometimes it's her fucking favourtism to the smarter ones, not like they don't deserve it but ahh. It's a fair thought, yes to like smarter more obedient but give me a chance?! Once I open my mouth it doesn't always have to be other stuff(out of point once again) I just realised my post is one huge chunk and by the time you read this, I'd probably seperate this into paragraphs.

Yeah I oughta study already, I told myself to give a "curfew" of 7; although I have so much more to say :l



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I feel like stabbing my maid, who the hell does she think she is pushing us around. I'm her fucking owner to put in a crude? way. bloody lazy and fucking think she has all the authority is it. My parents are paying you to work alright so do the job well.

I decided to remove all of my previous posts.
I guess that was obvious.
Whoops.