My computer doesn't have microsoft word for some strange reason, I seem to figure stuff on the computer after 1000000000... mins which is like common sense to others, I'm unhappy.
Anyway, I decided to use something efficient that I know is late for me to find out but eitherways, it's...........
PHOTOBUCKET!! -cheers-

Smelly Sarah









and I will talk as I haven't been posting regularly as I wait for the photos to load.
I realised I'm somewhat a perfectionist, GASPS!
Because I cannot stnad the smallest of problems on my computer.
Examples I'm going to state might just make you puke from sheer disgustment of my queer nature.
1. I can't stand that when upon using msn, and someone gives you a link and you click on it, you go direct to netscape which is no longer in use anymore, due to some undefault stuff

2. When my msn windows was open up and when i click on other sites, it wouldn't show cause it's behind the msn windows, if you get it.

3. The error report that keeps popping out everytime I on the computer, some CAPI error.

4. The computer hanging or lagging, I used to think my computer at the speed was fast. Until you keep using it and using it and realising it's not.

5. Not knowing all the little basics on the computer, examples include, powerpoint, photoshop.. HTML, oh that causes me to fizzle dizzle and explode.

12% more to go..

I will find a job by tmr, I will find a job by tmr.
I will earn enough money for a dslr.
I will put on weight, I will shop till I'm satisfied(laughs at that sentence in amusement)
I will break my habit of cracking my finger toe ankle knee neck wrist habit.
I will also break my habit of touching my hair.
I will be productive.
I will pack my table at the least.
I will sell the stuff I don't want.
I will try to do all the above.
Somehow I just let off steam and somewhat got it back when I saw what I just typed.
I got so many problems, so many minor ones, causing such a huge impact in my life, not really but pulling me down.
ARGH.
wishy washy.








ELLISTOR!!















More pictures coming ina few mins, not like you have to wait, they're all rubbish but for the sake of memories, I guess patience counts.


Magazines you should read are,

COMPUTER ARTS

VOGUE

NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC

PRACTICAL PHOTOGRAPHY

CREATING KEEPSAKES

Play

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Trivia.

I dont listen to the radio
I like Jazz
I like photography
I dont see anything wrong with artistic nudity(there's a fine line between it and pornography)
I brush my teeth when i'm stressed
I wished I were a guy
I believe growing hair takes patience
I decided my drum instructor is quite cool and his mindset that everything should be in plural.
I like my back
I love my hamster alot
This is bullshit, I can't think.


this are all rather random
















I look unglam in every picture I appear in, betcha can't beat that.



CHEERIOS.
Gdnight y'all

Okay, so I'm finding for a job because I need the money, or rather I like money, when I have the time, I will post up the stuff to sell, though I doubt anyone would buy, this blog is sparse, oh yeah, I need time to measure the clothes too ): ugh, I dislike the SGD sell trade stuff.

I need to sell stuff, I will soon, they are like stuff I bought on impulse.

Not in the best of mood, my hamster might have a cancerous lump on his back, I'm feeling extremely upset.

And with something else in particular.

Oh yes, I want my Genie webcam back with it and all its functions, mosaic, black and white, saturated, but the stupid software won't work, so my dad got another webcam, where its supoosed to be better, and more expensive and the software works fine, but when I try to download the extra video effects, it said the effects were there, but it wasn't!

(unhappy)

I need to paint, I need to do scrapbooking, my brother is being absolutely annoying now adding fuel to the fire, saying "oh yes! yeah when she does this and blah it's so annoying!"

Shut up lah you pain in the neck.

_l_

freaking gay go have a sex change.









UGH









UUUGHHHHHHH.















IMMATURE.

























IDIOTIC



















I try to be tolerant and I just feel like slapping his face.





Death sucks.

whats with sky shots, they're cheesy.

I gta find more ideas.

I should lighten up eh?
I do nothing in my life, I need to shop, alot, and that I require money.
I see my room all messed up and I think fungus is starting to grow on my table(exaggeration) but I keep procrastinating, you know, like I wanna clean but I'm too lazy/tired to.
I get annoyed with myself like that, and everything else contradicts.
I'm gna buy green skinnies, woohoo.
posb posb card card card.
shop, thats whats revolving in my head making me feel empty and bored without it, I think I'm materialistic, i believe money is of much importance.
I hate my legs all of a sudden, I mean much more than before.
Little bitch would love to break my nose






cheerios

School's been mad, boring, stupid.
What's wrong with youtube?! The videos cannot be embedded.
Anyway, hahahha, I've been watching little babies breakdance, it's really cute.
Monday was filled with crap, Sunday had my cell head to my house and me and Joyce watched japanese game shows.
Yes, she's the absolute hottest, I wanted to post her up for a really long time already,

Agyness Deyn.

I need to add more pictures man.

boys are made in toilet bowls

I really really hate boys, well most of them, at least.
Or rather this past week, I've seen many males at their most disgusting, atrocious and annoying, like those two bastards with no respect and courtesy, and some insane man who adjusts his shorts such that it looks like he's pulling them down, today, this freaking guy who was masturbating in the mrt, that reminds me, i thought mrt was "huo che" in chinese (HAHAHHAHA), and guys who apparently laughed at me cause they felt like it. even if they did have a reason, shut the fuck up and have some freaking respect.
And when I just decided to like this shit after some followups stuff some might know, 'pecially T, he decided to screw up my ego when I just got back my sanity.
No im not a sexist, Ryan Goh is still fine, that little glimpse of hope still there, try not to extinguish it.

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edit, okay maybe they werent laughing at me I was just feeling lousy.

NOT A FREEEEAAAK

So my mom and I were talking about being judgemental, and going for some bible study thing, they taught her about not being judgemental, christian values, all that.
I mean well yeah, I am a christian too but I believe in being judgemental.
Yeah, you can't base a person's character from first impression but it counts a lot.
I mean if you see this man and the way he speaks is total SHITZXX, then I mean you won't see him as a well brought up and poised young man eh?
See what I mean?
She says not retaliating to some painful people doesn't necessarily means you don't care but I don't see why if you are having some emotions, you shouldn't show it, I mean emotions aren't meant to be bottled up all day long and one day decides to emerge causing a nervous breakdown, wouldn't that harm yourself instead of when you could just show the bloody person how you feel and not affect yourself?
I mean afterall, you're more important person, even the person being the greatest authority and all, but I don't see why you should seek out for other ppl more than yourself.
Call it utter self-centeredness but I think you should treasure yourself more than others.
And if the person didn't want you to retaliate back at him, shouldn't he first thought of what he was going to do and what the consequences would be?
Shouldn't he know how it would affect you and how you would preobably behaved back to him?
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I think I'm turning into a monster, someone help me.

Okay, I watched some russian opera just now.
It's really awesome, the singer's called Vitas, just if you wanna search it.
Oh yes, a video before I head off to more words, by the way, it's only the url, there's some problem with the embed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68uOHsS6TlA

Something I saw from Delane's blog. Really cool.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ygJYxMP_ICY

Quite freaky too.

I guess it has some meaning in it, approach Ryan, I'm sure he has a list of what to say.

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Here goes.

Today I saw some shitfaces point and laughing, making fun of her, her size, her disability.
My heart broke, I felt like crying and yet I was seething with anger.
Why can't they show some respect.
She didn't even offend them.
So I glared, I wanted to curse, I tolerated.
Then I thought, what if she passed on, what if she never knew, never heard of Him.
What if she ends up suffering forever and it was all my fault because I had those 14 yrs but I sacrificed hersalvation for fear that she wouldn't listen, for that little confidence that she would believed.
For that little compromise, I could save a life, but I didn't.
I love her so much but I couldn't give up that little bit of pride.
I can't imagine not sleeping in the same room as her, not speaking poor dialect with her, not hearing her at all.
I'm scared of others' death rather than mine, that's not normal, but well, applied on her maybe, imagining her death affects me more than imagining my parent's death.
I hate myself.
This made no sense.
I think so much and I can't even express it, it's there but I can't force it out.

HEHEHEHE, okay so I finally went to the red dot museum with my friends.
At first I thought they might be dispointed cuase the place is kinda small but well, they were quite wow-ed by it so that's not so bad lah :)
YAY, so I got my portrait done, bought 4 beautiful prints, a french fries ring and got commented that I looked like an ah beng by abby.

I have been posting irregularly but I really don't feel like typing much ):

No one even bothers to come.
I wanna find a wedding gift for my cousin and his fiancee, prefably a photograph.

HAHAHHA!

My room is messy and I'm going nuts, but I'm being controversial because I don't wanna pack up.
Okay, I guess everyone's like that.

I need to practice painting.
I think I've gone arrogant, somewhat.
I think I'm good but I know I'm not that great.
I've seen so much better yet simple works.
Humble wumble fumble.
Okay. Off t paint.