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Angst

Why so angsty?
Common statement when I frown lament or whine.

I don't really know, maybe it's cause my tolerance is really low and when I tolerate, the fury bottles up and translates into tears and I hate crying, so I express my dissatisfaction, unhappiness, and they don't get it, piling up on their fucking hurtful indifferent statements therefore the yelling.
So is it my fault?

No.

But I am angsty, does my answer matter?

I think "angst" is pretty dumb, you link it to teens, the in-the-middle ones.
But grownup flares, toddlers too, in a crying-kinda-way.
So why give us the reason about unstable hormones.
I just get pissed.
Pissed when I'm asked a ques, I give an answer but since I'm always unreliable and wrong and stupid, they don't take my answer, pissed that I'm forced to do stacks of gruelling work, at the same time listening to those demoralising statements, pissed that you forget I've a fucking life with friends, pissed that you're so hypocritical and twp-faced and yet I can't be, pissed that you think you care but you don't, think you understand but you don't.
Just, pissed.

K,


Cute guy paired with good music to simmer down.

JULIA HAFSTROM BY JOHAN

At first, she seems too-cool-for-school.
Then she turns out to be really dorky, I like her samsui woman walk.

MTV's 16 and Pregnant - MTV Shows

I cried so hard after watching this.

Too much oestrogen.

I want my first kiss with my boyfriend to be like that!

Okay sorry I'm having a stupid-slap-me-now-girly-moment.

Plus isn't Robbie the cutest?!
Faints!

THE PREGNANT MALE!

This is fucking absurd, first you wanna be a man, then you want a kid in your stomach. Why so fickle!?

Click on the above for the news.

The pros of a hairy body.

Tell me if you have hairy chest, I help you make art with it!

I have a stomachache

There is this psycho bitch who I can never tell is really angry or not.

And this psycho baby who creates havoc without even trying.

This twats plus cheryl who hardly give the right reply I want (esp anisha) but they do try and I'm aware of it! (L)

Oh plus this really embarrassing person to be with in public, but he's really nice and funny and fails at making me feel good about myself but reaaally tries (I HOPE)

Oh and because of this people, my life is almost more than complete minus the hot body and flawless complexion and nice hair and nice clothes I want.
Thanks for the compensation God! :D

(and the many others I didn't state cause I look bad in the pictures I am with you!)

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I hope I made you smile :)

Healed

It really sucks to be going in and out of the hospital and knowing you have to for the next coupe of months, what sucks now is that you can't do anything, and by doing anything you're just gna mess things up.

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Anw, on a happier note, S is coming my house tomorrow yay!

Anna de Rijk

Up and coming model to watch, she's quite plain on first sight but her features are so delicate, yet so strong.
And OMGOSH, her eyes, AND HER HAIR!
I love the cleft chin too!
Balances out the too much feminimity.




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I have fucking gross hair for trade!
And oh, julia says my posts are weird.
Thanks you burst my ego bubble.

!@#$

OMG I HATE MATH SO MUCH; WTS IS WITH THE REPITITIVE MOCK EXAMS I DOWAND I DONCARE, STOP GIVING ME THIS BULLSHIT GRRR.

And then I'm rly fortunate to have friends who you just ramble and ramble at and they don't look annoyed although I'm sure anyone would get sick of a person full of complaints.

So you're really more than just your height and if a person's level of niceness is determind by his vertical value, maybe it's not bullshit or you could be an exception!

Thanks for the beans!

:D

letting go letting god

Almost a cont. to the previous,
Don't you think its a waste to really care remember and talk about the person once he/she is gone?
Almost hypocritical?
I feel almost sad for these passing 2.
Apologies all over the page, tears, face it, it won't revive her.
Yes we are grieving but those who made mean remarks, who added hurt to the heart, don't you think you're almost too late?
What's the point of talking about it, being regretful about it when you could've have done something earlier.
Okay, who am I to judge? I do it too, pretty much almost all the time, again I'm being hypocritical about hypocrites, but sometimes, it's the human nature that should be called the wicked nature.
Maybe we shouldn't concentrate so much on what to become but letting go and letting god.
Next is Revival.
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A thought

Wao haven't posted in a while,

updates:
-MJ's death
-first day of school
-schoolgirl's suicide
-cheena oral

I'm too lazy and no longer really feeling the need to post anymore but MJ's death; 26th june if I'm not wrong; a rly late comment.
On the 25th my dad got admitted to the hospital because of a possible heart attack again, and they next day when he was discharged and free from any cardiac problems, MJ passed away from a cardiac arrest.
Put my dad and MJ tgt, both in the same situation, same time, who would you rather have stayed on longer.
My dad is prolly some worthless loser to the world, not a hero nil zilch, even to me he's some sort of jerk, but he's my family's breadwinner, in a way my family's little "hero", so even though now certain things might seem totally unfair, small, uncomparable, I've learnt to embrace it, I've learnt to appreciate, so maybe MJ's death wasn't such a sad thing anymore, I got to love my dad a little bit more.

So just for this small little lesson,

Thanks Michael :)

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