I wanted to write this many days ago but I didn't have the chance.

During these days, I found out how easy it can be to lose someone so fast.
And things you might say will not be able to be taken back.
I don't know everything's fine again, things might come back to square one, and the vomitting of cusses might come back and I might hate you all over again.

I don't even know if I was scared to lose you at all, it felt quite damn surreal and I couldn't cry or think.

But then, all of a sudden tears would start rolling down my face and I would find myself worried that you might die.

Then I'd find myself thinking what will happen if you were gone.
Both the materialistic and other.

It felt like repetitive realisations and I kept hearing worse stuff every hour.
My heart pounded faster.

Now you're fine and the whole thing didn't even seem to have started at all.

I don't even know if it's just a basic thing to write or a sincere hope, but otherwise, keep remaining alright.

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Nipple Baby

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Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

old song
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I don't feel like studying or doing anything.
I should just give up only for this year.

Okay HK show, cheers.

The feeling that I'm feeling is complimentary.

She's falling for him, and he's falling for me, and I am falling for somebody else, who's falling for you, oh we're falling like dominoes.

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I think I'm a goof.

I hate my brain to function though it's quite amazing it can.
And something today made me think, and I'm too tired to think so I hope the thought comes out by itself w/o me thinking and then maybe I can write it down in time.

I wished people'd see me with more confidence, because though I can't do it, I might be able to do it with that confidence, at least I experienced motivation if I can do it still.

And you know the feeling of feeling unsure, not insecure but unsure and you don't know, it feels as if it's incomplete and you want to complete it but you don't know how and for it's completion, it needs no action but waiting.
Yeah that's it.

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okay nuddin to do with agyness.

Lit Sem was quite boring in general but the workshop quite captivated me.
I was spasticating when I knew what show had the music played.
The plays by RI were quite funny and SOTA was a huge disappointment.

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Went to Grace's church today! And I did something quite peculiar, which will NOT be spoken of.

Then I got lost whilst going home.

Oggay.
I go shitzzz.

I dowanda try to make my posts sound entertaining, or even care yet at the same time, I wished, w/o me trying, I'd sound entertainingly interesting.

Schoolbooks and studying wastes my time and I feel like quitting it altogether, I really really REALLY try SO hard and I get failed or fairly passed results.
Calclating my scores and with estimation and judgement, even if I do really really well for my eoys, I'd get bull results overall so I don't feel like trying anymore and storing for the next.

I was about to say I don't understand why teachers dislike me so much and I realised I do, it's my stupid look like I'm lesbo, stupid pai face, (though I think I can pull off the prefect look. heh.)
Ms. Dong keeps picking on me to sit infornt and I hardly talk and I think she thinks I don't pay attention cause I get bad results but the more front I sit, the more bored I become, the less attentive I am.
That could explain my droppage of results for emaths, whilst it's seems to be going the other way for grace.
Stupid crackwhore got 90++++

Haha.

I feel super ultimately bored with my life and I even forgot the feeling of an adrenaline rush.
I wanna do something exciting like slide down a long flight of staircare on a board or creating viruses in people's computers(ok kidding, I don't even know how to get rid of them lest make them.), or sucking up pepsi and sprite with my nostrils, etc..

I feel like a boring person, I doubt I would be the first in a person who is greatly sad or alone 's mind to call.

And my BLOG, it's like sparse and empty, i like what I write here but it seems very unappealing.


Okay, I go play Zelda on the wiiiiii :B

Cheers!

Ahahaha, can't wait, it's like not exactly the most awesome show in the world but a MUST WATCH and it's coming out in Nov! :D



Nother thing seems v. cool. Old show, was showing Delane, she made it sound like a predictable show :( As though I've bad taste wahlao.


I've been doing badly nowadays and ppl are going, "It's okay if you try your best." but doesn't just pulll down your morale cause you work so hard getting bull results.

And I think I'm jinxed, I broke Del's specs then my presence I think caused her speakers to screw B/

COOL.

swoonzz

(by: sokkuan)

wah.

I need to buy

shirt shoes bag, many.

I grab the cup and I think think, think it real.
The water's dripping down and it feels so stale,
but I know there's no end,
this time something's gonna bend,
and it will, it will, it will.

Right now, needs no praying,
I just need to do some catching.
It's too seemingly ea-zeh
I might just be going cra-zeh.. eh eh.

I try not to do no thinking,
but somebody's winking.
I like the way it feels,
no, this can't be real.
Cause..

Right now, needs no praying,
I just need to do some catching.
It's too seemingly ea-zeh
I might just be going cra-zeh.. eh eh.

The smell of paper,
it makes me whimper..
Oh, I like the smell of something made of wood.
Nobody said done it not be could.

Right now, needs no praying,
I just need to do some catching.
It's too seemingly ea-zeh
I might just be going cra-zeh.. eh eh.

Oh shizzledifizzle,
I think it's gonna drizzle,
and my laudry's out there,
but I'm twenty miles out there..
What am I gonna be doing?

Right now, needs no praying,
I just need to do some catching.
It's too seemingly ea-zeh
I might just be going cra-zeh.. eh eh.

I'm not going back to where I've started,
I'm not gonna go to being retarded.
This is not easy,
but I'd rather not be sleazy..

Right now, I don't know what I'm saying,
I just know I need no catching,
It's not that ea-zeh.
I'm already cra-zeh.

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Am I ugleh am I ug.....LEH!??(fred's voice)

:B

I cannot moan or groan or (whine),

b.. b.. but,

aiya don't tell you. teehee.

hahaha, this is hilarious, I saw Vag's one then I found this.

Miley Cyrus's teeth are damn crooked.

Garden State is quite cool teehee,
The Shins is extremely funky, second to Jason.
Actually I dono lah, on impulse?

I miss Michael Seater. :(

I think I'm very uncool when my friends are reading this.

Haha wait I go wear Anisha's swimming costume
-psst, TWO PIECE BIKINI LIKE THING!- (Cheryl & T here:D )

Cheryl here.
I think Gracelynn's post need to be a little longer than that:D
&do you know that she actually has BOOBS? I mean, OMGWTFMFW :O
W o W

OI! (gracelynn)

T here.
the costume is bright blue and looks like underwear. imagine that. woah man. imagine gracelynn IN THAT. if we were matthew tham we would be calling her not bimbo freak.

ANISHA: anisha was nice enough to lend gracelynn her old old old swimming costume!
and ok fine its hideous.haha!


GRACELYNN LOVES ANISHA!!
WEEEEE!
&CHERYL and TRICIA:)

DONT FORGET MATTHEW THAM LUBX EUXZXZX

Fuguudy Fuguudy Fug.


So I cried the entire of Sunday cause I couldn't watch My Beloved.
And my eyes turned pain and swollen and it didn't help that I had to be remembered about it through radio tv, papers.. etc.

I think I complain alot.
Nevermind, I think I saw an article in HerWorld that it's good for you :)
And HerWorld is the No.1 one female magazine in Sg so yes.


Anyway, is me or the society that we're brought up in that makes us so freaking selfish and kiasu.
It's so idiotic when I see people being afraid to lose.
I mean WTF, someone has to lose and it's no matter if it's you.
And I'm not just talking about studies, I mean basically everything.
When you ALREADY get what you want, is there really a need to care if another person has that thing.
And majority can't stand people with attitude like yours, having everything your way.
Well, grow up.
One day you go bust, and you don't go boo hooing in the streets expecting someone to offer you a million. Not even ten, since we're talking about Sg.
How ironic I'm talking about this when National Day is approaching.

Back to the point is, I really can't stand this kind of self conceited people, I mean I'm almost like that, but I care about people's feelings and not treating everybody as though they are below the earth's core or something.

And I want a cat.
And name it EH!, or maybe smelly faced. :B


Oh yes.
Did I mention I'm so fucking jealous of all you singfest go-ers minus those who (didn't zilch their pockets.)